Not For Me......

NOT FOR ME

Maybe love is not for me,
At this time perhaps its not my goal,
I know im meant for more,
Yet I feel incomplete and all I want to do is be whole,
I feel like somethings missing,
All I want is to feel true kissing,
Again and Again,
I put myself out there and all I have is friends,
That’s not my fault,
Yet its not what I thought,
What do I do,
When all I want is you,
YOU, to see me,
For all that I be,
YOU, to understand,
YOU, to hold my hand,
See my intricacies,
And care for me (perhaps love) for all that I can be,
Im not much now,
But ive seen the light,
And at night, I look to the stars, and the heavens and ask that I do right,
Do right by YOU,
Yet here on earth no one understands,
Not even a few,
Im LONE, A-LONE,
One of a kind, never possibly cloned,
So Im not what your used to,
Im nothing like what you knew,
Nothing that you’ve known,
Im just questioning life,
Trying to figure out my goals,
Figure out my fate,
Life is long, but I have the feeling it may be too late,
What do I do?
Who do I ask,
I’ve gone to school, learned your ways, gotten A’s in your class,
Now its time for me to school you,
I tried to learn, you tried to show me what to do,
Now its time for me to come up,
Time to find my way.
What do I do? How do I do it? How do I get you to understand?
What do I say?
All I know is there is no written path for me,
Time to forge a way.

"Lovingly"

"Lovingly"

Unspoken I look at you silently, You look at me enticingly, I feel the need to look away, It is your eyes, They are visually mesmerizing me, Tempting, Tantalizing me, Your demeanor is that of a sinning innocence, There is a difference in you that I see, Regardless of your prior situations you need to be with me, Your current situation makes no difference to me, You and me need to see what the deal is between you and me, With a shape that is enticing and so exciting, Yet it is your demeanor and mentality that truly has gotten to me, Frightening me, Exciting me, Captivating my interest instantly and intensely, More that when the screams and yells bring about the appearance of Gyika, This whole situation is more shocking to me than when a nun kisses and tells society, You definitely seem to be an angel that came into my life ironically, True, But that fact non the less is an undeniability, Now weather or not my words and feelings are understood for their true meaning and intensity, I will put it to you simply, If I ever dispense the non sense and I build up the confidence to share with you not stare at you, And if I could honestly present you with the proposition of being my boo, And if my words thoughts and feelings are presented for you to see, Read, Or hear, Please know they are true, And if you have any questions, Look in my eyes as you did on our first encounter, And you will see that I can’t help but think about you, And that is forthright and honest, Todo y Siempre is true.